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But somehow it was not a good night sleep. I ended up waking up around 4 in the morning, completely covered in sweat. I knew I had had another dream. I just didn’t know what happened in it.

I stayed down on the bad thinking about David and what he said he wouldn’t let go. I knew I had to go to school or David would be all over again on me the next afternoon and there is no way I could tell him what had happened. Despite his good intentions.

I just lay on down on the bed until it was time to get up. I wanted to be up early so I had all the time to get my self together and try to make me look reasonable.

I was going to school but I didn’t know what I was going to do down there.

I got up around 6.30 and started to walk to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and saw that my colour was still very pale. I just knew I had to get it together though. I showered, got dressed and tried to put some colour on my checks by using a little powder that had been from my mom in the past.

It was around 7.30 when I came downstairs. Dad was already in the kitchen and I greeted him.

“Hi Dad, goodmorning”.

“Goodmorning Nick, and how are we feeling. Better already?”

“Well good enough to go to school today Dad. I was planning on skipping practice I am not fit enough to do that already”.

“Ok that is fine by me son, just take a good rest when you come home today. I have again a meeting so I won’t be home before 7 or so”.

“That is no problem Dad, I will make my some dinner, which can be warmed up, in the oven”.

David seemed to have heard does last words because when he entered he said: “That is a good thing because I will not home until 8 or so. I have to work on a project for science with some other students after practice today”.

We went to school together David and me but we hardly spoke. David tried but he already found out that I was not into it that morning. Somehow I managed to end every topic he started very quickly.

My mind kept on wondering how I was going to deal with seeing mike. I just couldn’t see him or talk to him at all.

I stayed in the far end of the school assembly hall. Completely on the other side where we normally would be. I didn’t know any one who was standing around waiting for the first period to start.

I waited as long as possible. I wanted the last one to enter the classroom so there was almost no chance that some one was going to start asking me questions or so.

That happened to go very well and I survived the first period. The second I knew was together with Mike so I tried again to enter the classroom as last one.

It worked again but when I entered I saw Mike looking at me. He was sitting two tables to the left so every time I looked in that direction I saw that he was looking at me. His face had a worried look on it. When the bell sounded I run out of the classroom very quickly and went to the toilet.

I walked into one of the stalls and sat down on the toilet. What the hell was I doing here? I had been to two classes now and the only thing what I had done was trying to ditch all question about what I had have while I was sick. If I was better already and things like that.

I didn’t hear one bit of what the teachers had been talking about and at the same time I knew that both the first period teacher and the second period teacher looked in my direction several times as if they knew I was not listening.

It was hard going around like this all-day or even for a week. I just couldn’t think about that. I stayed in the stall for a long time I didn’t hear the bell ring for the next period and somehow it came clear to me that the last time I heard the door was some time ago so the next period must have started already. Shit I mist a class. There was no way I could go over there now. Then I would have to answer questions for sure.

Most of the hour I stayed in the toilet. SO there was no chance that some teacher or other students would see me. I just walked out when the bell rang for the last period for lunch to start.

Again I stayed out of trouble there where almost no students in that class which I knew. But my mind was more on the hour after that. Lunch break. Where would I go then? It was almost for sure that David would try to talk to me then.

I walked into the canteen. I was one of the lasts. I knew that David and his friends where normally one of the firsts to enter so maybe they would be already finished. When I walked by the (payment area) I heard my brother call.

“Nick we are over here. Come on”.

“Ok I am coming David”. I knew there was no way I could get away from them without being suspicious.

“He how are you doing, you start to look like shit again”.

Well that was one way of cheering me up. “Well I am holding on David, just getting tired all ready”.

“Mike has been looking for you, you know. I think he want to ask you if you want to do some training at his house as long as you are not attending practice this afternoon”.

“Well I am not sure of that but I will try and find him in a moment”.

“He is sitting just down there so why don’t you tell him that”.

I slowly walked in the direction of Mike. I felt some stare on my back. Beside David there had been sitting also Francis on the table with him and I felt how both of them looked at me while I was walking towards Mike.

“Hi Mike”I said trying to sound as normal as possible, “I heard that you was looking for me”.

“Yea sit down Nick, we have to talk you know”.

“Well Hopefully I made it clear the last time that I don’t want to talk to you about it. Don’t you get that”.

“But you need to talk about it Nick. You can’t keep everything inside you”.

“If I talk than that is certainly not going to be to you”.

“Ok I will drop that then but you are still welcome to do some extra workout when ever you want at my place”.

I had no answer ready for that. I was not sure if I could ever visit that room again without complete loosing it. It had been terrible and somehow I had hope I could let it go by now but every time I would take with Mike I knew it would be back.

“Nick, are you Ok. I just want to help you. I still have to give the doctors some answer to but I think I can hold them of for an extra week or so. You don’t have to worry about that yet”.

“Mike don’t you get it. I can’t talk about it so please leave me alone for a while. Don’t try looking for me either”.  I knew I couldn’t say anything anymore and I just stood up and walked away. I had to get out of the canteen quickly. I looked around to see where my brother and Francis where. They where still sitting at the same table. David was talking to one of his friends but Francis was looking directly at me and had a strange look on his face. It seemed as if he had some idea what Mike and me where talking about, but that was impossible.

I walked out of the canteen. I walked straight to the nearest toilet. I didn’t look back to see if Mike was following me but I only hoped he hadn’t. Again I sat down on the toilet and I felt the need to cry again. How could have happened all of this? Just as I was getting some friends in this new town and I was starting to enjoy the gymnastic everything turned upside down.

If I was going back to practice later that week and when I would see al those training facilities I would have to think at the room of Mike again where all those fitness apparatus are standing.

I missed again a whole hour. I did find that out when after a long silence in the toilet area boys started to come in again. I missed a class of English but that was not the worst. I knew I better tried to get in at the next hour. Francis and Mike where both in that same class so I better show up or some one would tell my dad. That was one risk I never could take.

I slowly stood up and walked out of the stall towards the mirror. Nobody was there at the moment. I quickly looked into the mirror and was that my eyes where red again. I must have been more crying then I thought. I put some water on my face trying to get ride of the tear marks that were on my face.

I just turned around in time when I heard some one come into the toilet area. I slowly started to walk out into the hallway. I tried to look to the ground as much as possible so not to many would notice my red eyes.

When I entered the classroom I saw that both Mike and Francis were already there. They were both looking at me when I came in. I saw worry on Mikes face but Francis had more of a desperate look on his.

I sat down and before either of them could come my way the teacher entered so I survived that one.

Nothing happened during class. I managed somehow to stay out of the line of questing the teacher was doing and I didn’t have to talk of any other student.

When the bell of the end of class rang I started to get up out of my chair but I dropped almost everything what was on my desk. I had planned to try and get out as soon as possible but I knew that that was out of the question now. I put everything in my bag and before I was finished I felt how some one was standing beside me. I looked up to see who it was.

“Nick do you need any help. I missed you during the last hour where were you”.

“Mike as I told you before stop worrying and leave me alone”.

“But I can’t Nick, look at you, your face is lacking every little bit of colour and your eyes are red as if you cried for a long time”.

“One more time Mike leave me alone”. I said that rather out loud and I startled to see who were still in the classroom but most of them where gone.

“Nick please come on let me help you”.

“Mike for the last time leave me alone. I will be fine if you do that”. I started to walk out of the room rather quickly not looking back at Mike.

I knew I could not keep this up any more. When I walked outside I saw Francis standing at the other side of the hall looking in my direction. Oh no I thought I couldn’t talk to him just now, the way that I look. I turned around and there was only one place to go, out of here, back home where no one would ask questions. That would mean that I was going to miss another hour but I just hoped the teacher wouldn’t notice that.

I quickly started to walk out of the hall. I thought I heard some one call my name but I just didn’t look around to see who it was. I had only one thing on my mind to get out of here as soon as possible.

Somehow I found my way home. Still everything that happened was in a kind of a blur. I went inside our house and walked straight to the bathroom. I entered it and looked at myself in the mirror. Could I take this much longer? Would the pain and the memory ever stop? I had hopped it would be better if I went to school but it just didn’t. It had only been a terrible day with Mike talking to me again and I not getting through to him that he should leave me alone.

I better try to rest a little bit. I had another three hours before David and Dad would be home so I could take a little nap. It would improve the way I looked.

I went to bed, but after a half-hour I knew I needed some help to get to sleep. I knew dad had sleeping pills in his medicine cupboard. I walk to his bathroom and I opened the medicine cupboard. There they were I took the bottle out. I looked at it. Would it stop the pain? Was it worth it to go on like that for a long time? I looked at the bottle and slowly walked back into my room.

I lay down on the bed still with the bottle in my hand. It was more than half full so there was enough of it. If it would help to get ride of the pain I felt that would be good but I knew it mend saying goodbye of David and Dad and Francis. I also would miss to meet Alexei. I just stared at the bottle and a lot of pro’s and contra’s came into my mind.

I don’t know how long it took me but I put some pills on my hand. I guess there where 15 of them. I just looked it. Should I do it? Should I end it and be over with it. It was not the first time since the things that happened on Sunday that I was thinking about it but really having the pills in my hand made it become very real.

I just laid down there.  I am not sure for how long but the next thing that came to my senses was some one yelling at me. I looked up to see who it was and at the same time I could hear what he was yelling.

“No Nick don’t take them. What ever is wrong it is no way out”.

I looked at the face of the person that walked in and a name came to me. It was Francis who stood there.

“No Nick, stop let’s talk about it. You can’t do that”.

I looked at my hand and I suddenly realised that there was more than one sleeping pill on it. There were at least 10 or 15.

“Here give them to me, Nick and lest talk but promise me you are never going to do such a thing again. I can’t miss you”.

I looked from my hand to Francis who had walked towards the bed and stood beside it.

“Give them to me Nick”.

I slowly brought my head to that one of Nick and let the pills fall on his hand. Still I hadn’t say a thing to him, but he started to become a little more at ease when all the pills on my hand where on his hand.

“Give me the bottle too Nick”.

I did as told and gave him the bottle also.

“Where you really considering to do what I think you where doing Nick. It is because it was something I said last night?”

I still looked at him and I felt came to my sense little by little. Had I really considered doing that? I could hardly believe I was. The pain I had felt just before I took the bottle in my hand came back to live and I started slowly to cry again. All the fears and anger of trying to hide what happened to me during that day was running over my cheeks and wetting my bed.

“Cry if that helps Nick, cry as much as you want”.

I didn’t look at him from the moment I started to cry but I felt how he was touching my back and started to comfort me by slowly rubbing it. I slowly turned around and I put my face over his shoulder and he started to comfort me for real. I don’t know how long I cried but it was the first time I could cry without being a shamed or so. I just let it out all. All the pain I felt from Sunday and all the pain I had because I started more and more to realise what I just had been thinking about and it scared me a lot. I was normally not the person to do such a thing or was I.

Francis was still comforting me and saying lovely sweet words to me like: it is good to cry. Let it our, I am here to help you. If you ever need some one to talk to I am here for you.

Slowly I started to come to rest and my crying went into a little sobbing. I leaned back and looked into Francis eyes. I slowly started to go forward again but not with my head towards his shoulder but in the direction of his head. Our lips slowly touched each other and we started to kiss a little bit. But then Francis pushed me back. The first thing that went through my mind, see he doesn’t want me but when I looked into his eyes I saw that that was not the case there was pain in his eyes but also compassion and something I had never seen in someone when they were looking at me. Could that be love?

“No wait Nick, this is not a good thing to do now. I am here for you and if you cry you may but lets not get from one thing into an other. You’re emotions are quite shocked I guess so lets not make things more complicated”.

“Ok Francis.

Ï was still not ready to say more to him so I just get starring in those lovely eyes and that sympathetic face of his.

“Let us sit back on the bed Nick”.

He slowly pushed me back into the pillow and he sat down beside me on the bed.

“Will you take to me Nick or do you want me to get some one else”.

“No Francis please no one else”.

“Ok it is all op to you Nick. Do you want to talk about it”.

“I don’t know. I am not sure what I was doing”.

He looked at me and said: “well I am not sure if you want to here it said by some one else but you where trying to kill yourself or did I see it wrong”.

“Well, I don’t know. I just wanted to take one pill to get some sleep. I … I don’t know how the other pills came on my hand”. I said that with a slightly trembling voice.

“Ok I just don’t want to go into that Nick but if you are ready to tell it I am here”.

I just sat down back at my pillow not looking at him any more. Could I tell him what happened? Would it help me? I just hadn’t been realising what I was doing was dangedeours.

“I am not sure what there is to tell you Francis. There are some things I can’t talk about and others I don’t want talk about it”.

“Did it had something to do with the talk you had with Mike I saw that you where completely pall when you ran out of the canteen”.

“I am sorry but I can’t talk about it Francis”.

“Well I think you have Nick, you can’t just let this go by without taking to some one. Can’t you talk to David about it you told yesterday that he is pretty open about things. Or your dad he isn’t a total authorise dad, I think you talk a lot about stuff”.

“No I don’t want to talk about it with Dad or even David”.

We sat there just being silent for a few minutes it could have been more also.

“Ok I didn’t want to this yet Nick but I am going to tell you something about me”.

“You don’t have to tell me anything Francis, if you don’t want you know that”.

“I know, but under the circumstances it is good that you know that I did try to kill me”.

I looked surprised at him and said: “You did?”

“Yea I did and I know how important it is to talk about it. Even when you just didn’t do it but you where really thinking about it”.

“That is true”.

“So just let me talk and save your questions until later because otherwise I am not sure if I can do this. Besides my parents I didn’t talk or tell any one”.

“Ok, but if you don’t want don’t do it”.

“It has all to do with the fact that I told you yesterday.  2 years ago I fell in love with a two-year-older gymnast on the team. His name was Brian, it was great. We hit it off really good. We could talk about everything. We became friends at first but quickly we felt both that there was more than that. We started to hang out almost continuously. We excersized together and this is how I became where I am now with being a gymnast. After a few months he stayed over at my house. Late in the evening we had drunk a little we started to kiss each other. It did just happened and it felt like everything fell in his place. We fell in love. We didn’t do anything else than feel each other’s rubbing shoulders, back, etc and we kissed a lot. We tried to be as careful as possible because I didn’t want other classmates or my parents to know what was going on. But it became more and more difficult to do as if we were only friends when others where around. After a little more then a half-year my Mother caught us while we were kissing in the back of the garden of our house. I didn’t know she was already back from shopping. That was the beginning of the end”.

Francis stopped for a while. He looked straightforward and I saw that there was starting to form a tear on his cheek. I just waited for him to continue.

He took a deep breach and continued: “My parents where furious about it. We tried to talk about it but that failed. They just didn’t want to listen to me. They where very mad at Brian. They thought it was his fault because he was two years older then I. For almost a weeklong I didn’t talk to them. I stayed in my room as much as possible. I saw Brian each day at school and we talked about what happened but when my Dad found out that that was going on he forbid me to go to school the next day. The first day when I stayed home I was completely lost but I managed to go through. That evening Dad told me that he was trying to get me into another school in the city. That night my life broke together and when I was alone the next day I just couldn’t go through with life if this was what it was going to be”.

He had started to cry a little more and his voice was shaken a lot. “Francis you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want or if this is causing to much pain”.

He looked at me and there came some smile back on his face.

“I think Nick it is good for me to tell you. As I said before it is a good thing to tell about it instead of keeping it to yourself.  My Mom got me just in time when I had took the pills and was unconscious. I went to the hospital and they took care of it. I started to have sessions with a shrink every day and after a week we had our first session together with my Mom and Dad. They still wouldn’t hear of me having an affair with Brian but they insist of me having more sessions with the shrink. I think they hoped that I was going to talk about it and become a heterosexual. I knew from the beginning that that was not possible but I hadn’t got the energy to fight them. At the end just before I left the hospital a month later we agreed in a sessions with the shrink that I was best helped in another environment. So that is why we moved to this town. Mom and Dad still expect that because of me changing to another city that I could change they way I feel about other boys and men”.

He was crying out loud now and I took him in my arms. It seemed like comforting time for me now. During his story I had started to cry again also so we both held each other crying. After a few minutes we started to calm down again and we sat back at my pillow. We looked at each other and I asked him: “May I ask you something Francis?”

“Yea that is OK”.

“Do you still see a shrink?”

“No not any more. I had my last session just before I left the other city. But it was a really strange shrink because he listened more to my parents then to me”.

“But did he help you then”.

“Yes he did. Somehow he made me get passed my attempted suicide. I accepted it and I learned that that was not a way out. I got stronger with each session even while he did not help me directly. It cleared my mind. Can you understand that”.

“I guess, but your parents still think the same about it”.

“Yes and it is getting difficult more and more. I just don’t want to argue with them about it because I know exactly where we will end up. I am not yet ready to go on into the world alone”.

“You will never be alone Francis you have got me”: I said with a smile to him. I just wanted to let him know that I was going to be there for him what every he wanted to do”.

“Well that is one of the problems Nick. When I saw you I started to get the same feelings back which I had for Brian. I just didn’t want that to happen but at the same time I couldn’t ignore it. So I was a little bit shocked when I kissed you the first time. I didn’t know what to do. I ask myself if I could get involved with you and dealing with it openly so my parents would find out. If there is one think I don’t want is to have to hide those feelings or doing sneaky about it. I have done that with Brian and I can’t do that any more. So that is why I didn’t want to talk with you after what happened. At first I thought oh no not again. I just wanted this to happen already again. But I have learned that when you fall for some one you can’t help it. Do you understand that”.

“Yea I do”. His tears had started to dry up and I just swept slowly with my had over his cheeks.

We just looked at each other for a while, without any words.

“So Nick, that is why I learned that it is important to talk about these things. If you don’t do that you get in trouble. So I am not going to push you know but if you want I am here for you”.

“I know, Francis”.  I was thrown back to my own problems again and I knew that Francis was right. But were to start what to tell. Knowing that he is right is still something else then telling him.

“May I ask you something else Francis, Did you really mean it when you said you had feelings for me?”

“Yes I do Nick, that was the reason why I behaved as I did”.

“Would you want us to start something or”.

“Well you put it very clinical Nick. The only thing I can say at the moment is yes I want to keep seeing you. I want to get to know you better and for the rest I just want to see where it leads”.

“Ok that is fine by me Francis. I just know one thing now and that is that I want you to hold me and if you like I want to kiss you”.

Without any hesitation Francis brought his face towards me and again our lips touched each other. I felt all kind of feelings going through me it looks of my body came to live. We started to explore the possibilities of the kiss a little more and slowly we shared more and more the content of our mouth. I just didn’t know what happened but I knew I had to stop to get some breath. Instead of going back to our places I moved my arms around him and started to hug him. I felt his warm body against mine. It gave me a safe feeling. It also made me lose myself again in all the emotions of the past days and I started to cry again.

Francis just comforted me and didn’t say anything. When I started to stop crying he looked into my eyes.

“Why did you cry Nick”.

“Well all the different emotions of despair to happiness came back again and I just felt very happy when we hugged each other”.

“That is ok Nick we need to be open to each other if we want this to work. I guess I answered your question Nick, I want to hold you and kiss you too. But I need you to understand that if we go on and if it start serious I want you to know that I want to make it known. Because I won’t try to hide it to any one not even my parents. Their reaction is for themselves and I have to do what I have to do then”. 

“I don’t think I have a problem with that Francis. I couldn’t lie to David or Dad about such a thing. I think that David would feel it or see it any way. He always read me as an open book”.

He slowly started to touch my hair with his right hand. He slowly went through it and when he was back at my head he slowly push my face towards him. Just before our lips touched each other he whispered: “I love your hair. It is so soft so lovely”.

I got no chance to answer because our lips where once clinched together. We hugged, kissed and touched each other for a while. Then we slowly let each other lose and sat back at the pillow. We didn’t say anything for a while. I guess we both just were getting in touch with what we felt.

“I don’t want to push you Nick, but I know that a lot of things must go around in your head so when every you think you need to talk about it, call me and I will be here for you”.

“I know Francis. I well ………”.  My voice started to tremble a little there was part of me that wanted to talk about it but I am not sure what to tell.

“Well Francis, I can’t talk about it yet but what I would like to say is that I had a really bad experience this weekend and I have a hard time dealing with it”.

“Don’t worry about it to much Nick. What ever happened to you it is not your fault. But maybe let’s try to talk about something else. I guess you want to be back on practice by Friday when Alexei Nemov will be there. What do you think of him”.

I smiled at him and said: “I am very happy that his coming I am always have had some kind of childish cross on him. I have a lot of pics of him on my computer do you want to see them”.

“Yea that is fine by me. He is very good-looking but I heard something about him going to be married soon”.

I started up the computer and during the next 15 minutes or so we just looked around the net finding information about him and chat a little bit about him.

“I am very eager to learn from him it will certainly lift up my level of exercise”. Francis said at a certain moment.

“Yea I know. I hope he has some time to spend with me to, despite I am only the reserve and I am only doing some start up exercise yet”.

“He will, you are a part of the team you now”.

It had been a while and I started to think again about kissing him. So I decided to take the lead and I brought my head towards him. He immediately knew what I wanted to do and we started to kiss each other. This time we kept on doing it for a while. I felt completely turned around and instead of being completely down I was in heaven now.

Suddenly the door of my bedroom was opened and we both started and looked a little embarrassed to the door to see who there was.

“Oh, sorry to disturb you two Nick. I am sorry Francis. But I just wanted to see how Nick was doing after he went home this afternoon”.

“ah …. “I wanted to start to say something but I just couldn’t

“AH, what”David continued for me. “If you want to say something about what I saw I just want you to know that I am not surprised by it. I expected something to happen like that since I saw you for the first time checking each other out”.

“SO you are not angry or so about it, David”. I asked.

“No brother you are and will be still the same Nick as you was before. As I said yesterday I will always be there for you just as I know you will be there for me”.

“Well then I just want to let you know that I like Francis a lot”. And while I said that I took the opportunity to bring my face again towards Francis and I started to kiss him.

“Sorry guys but can you do that in private for a while I just wanted to see if you where all right”.

I looked at Francis hoping he would answer that question because I didn’t know what to say about it.

“David, I think that Nick will be alright we have talked about it all and I guess we will be both alright now”.

“I am glad Francis because I already started to wonder what was wrong with you too after what happened during the last few days. I guess I better leave you too alone then. I will be going in a minute or 5 and Dad won’t be home for another hour or so. I will be with Gladia and Lucia to work on my project so if you want anything you know where to reach me”.

“Ok, thanks David, Talk to you when you’re back Ok”.

“Yea that is fine by me Nick”. David walked out of the room and we looked at each other.

“Well that went well”.

“I guess so, but won’t he tell your Dad or any one else Nick”.

“No I don’t think so”.

“I just want to make sure about that. I want to be sure that if my dad and mom would find out it is by me and not through rumours or so. I will be right back”.

Francis walked out the room and I just walked back to the bed.

In the mean time Francis found David.

“David I just wanted to have a quick word with you before you left. I won’t be around when you are back because I have to do some homework tonight. I just wanted to talk to you about Nick”.

“Ok, he is fine now or isn’t he”.

“Well I am not sure. He wasn’t sick because of what happened between us. There is something else. He didn’t tell me yet but I know that it is better if you keep an eye on him”.

“Oh, are you sure that is necessary. He looked very happy when I was just there”.

“I know but there is more to it and he was very down when I came by so I don’t think that can be twisted that easily just because we talked about our own feelings for each other.”.

“You said you don’t know what is wrong with him. If there is something I can do to help him just must tell me what you know Francis? I am honest about what I said before I want to be there for him”.

“Well if there is anything to tell I make sure I do that. But for the time being I have nothing yet. And I am not sure if you should try to talk with him. Maybe he will talk with you about it.

“I will see what I can do tonight when I am back”.

“Thanks David. He looked real terrible when I entered today and I just don’t want to feel that way. I better will be going back to him. I will stay until your dad is home so he won’t be alone at the house”.

“See you tomorrow then Francis”.

“Ok, thanks David”.

 

“Ah there you are Francis and did you find David?”.

“Yes I did and he promised me that he will not tell any one”.

“HM, I though so, Come here I already started to miss you”. I said.

Francis walked towards the bed and he lay down on it beside me. I shifted myself a little bit so that I could rest my head on his chest. While I did that Francis put his arms around me and started to rub my chest. I looked at him and he brought his head towards me and we kissed for a while.

We just lay down on the bed for a while with my head on his chest. Sometimes looking at each other just enjoying each other company.

It really felt good and I almost dozed off.

Francis kissed me on the lips again and when he finished he whispered: “I believe I heard your Dad come into the house we better get out of the bed”.

“I guess you’re right”. But I didn’t make one move to get off him. I felt save lying on his chest enjoying his smell.

“Come on, Nick. I don’t want to tell you’re dad anything yet and he will be here soon.

I smiled at him and I slowly got up and stepped out of the bed towards the chair that is behind my computer. Francis pulled his clothes a little straight and then he sat down on the other chair, which was at my computer.

He was right because only a minute or so later my Dad opened door.

“Hi Nick, how are you feeling…”: He started when he entered the door but he quickly continued when he saw that Francis was there. “… he Francis you are here. I missed you already at practice”.

“I know coach but I saw that Nick went home just before practice started and I just wanted to know if he was alright. He looked quite bad when he left”.

“mmm, Well I am glad you did and that you kept him company. You can have tomorrow an extra long session if you want to catch up”.

“Ok sir”.

“And Nick how are you feeling. I heard you skipped one class today and that you went home early so I started to worry a bit. Why didn’t you come by to tell me I want to know if you don’t feel good? I heard it just before I left today”.

“I am sorry Dad but I just felt a little more tired then I thought. So I head to get back home half way through the day”.

“Well I want you to stay home tomorrow again and I will try to get a doctor to visit you tomorrow”.

“No Dad, I think I will be alright again tomorrow after I had a good night rest this night”.

“Did you think that for today also. I am not sure but I want to be sure that there is nothing wrong with you. Do you stay for dinner Francis because I have to start making it any way”.

“No sir I have to go home. I have to do some homework for tomorrow”.

“Ok, and you Nick are you hungry?”.

“Yes Dad now you mentioned it I really want to eat something”.

“Ok, I will start in a few minutes and see you in an half hour”.

“Ok Dad”. He walked out of my room and I looked at Francis with a little fear in my face.

“Francis can you talk to my Dad I definitely not want to see a doctor and I want to go to school tomorrow”.

“Do you think that it will help if I talk to him and are you sure you want to go to school tomorrow”.

“Yea I think it will help when you talk to him and I want to go to school again. I want to see you so that will get me through the day”.

“Ok, I have to go in a few minutes but I will try to talk to your Dad and see what I kind do. But before I leave I want to have something to remember tonight and get me through until tomorrow”.

When he finished that sentence he started slowly to kiss me again. First just our lips touched each other and we slowly starting to suck on each other. Then he opened his mouth a little and I felt how his tuneless touched my lips and softly pushed them apart. I opened my mouth and an electric feeling when through me when our tunsels touched each other. The emotions where overwhelming. It was the best kiss we shared until then.  We had to stop because we both needed to breathe a little.

“Hmm that will get me through this evening at least”.

“Yes I guess it does”.

Francis slowly turned away from me. “I will talk to your dad but you have to ensure me that you are going to be ok and go downstairs in a minute instead of sitting down here for on you own”.

“Ok I will do that Francis, but only if I get one more kiss from you”.

“Hm blackmail but a one I like”. He slowly walked back to me and kissed me again.

Then without saying anything he left my room and walked downstairs. I waited until I did hear the front door open and closed again. I think that Francis had talked with my Dad for a minute or 10. I slowly got up and walked towards the bathroom. I just wanted to wash my face and then had to go downstairs.

My Dad was still in the kitchen and I just sat down in the livingroom and put on the TV.

We had dinner together we talked a lot about the visit of Alexei but he didn’t say anything about a doctor or so. I became very very curious about what Francis had told him.

I went to bed early I wanted to rest and be tough enough to go to school tommorrow.

chapter 15